That I actually wish Lei were here to experience this with me. We would've had a fuckin' blast.




And, so would they. <3

I was going through prior entries, and I forgot to fill you in on the application process with Wal-Mart.

I got the job. :D

I've already put in like 14 hours. They only work me on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday for now, which is really convenient. It works around Bry's schedule, and that's what I needed. It's 48 hours a paycheck, and that's not bad at all. I'm just working to get out of the house, and a little extra money never hurt anyone.

They started me off fairly well, b/c I have experience in retail. And, their benefits are amazing. Let's just say, if something were to happen to me... Bry would be taken care of. I was worried that I wasn't gonna be able to go home, when he deployed. Because Wal-Mart's transfer policy is sort of hectic. They want you to work 6 MOS. before they'll transfer you. Luckily, they said they'll work with me, since Bry Guy's deploying in less than four months now. :/ OMG, time flies.

I've had a few friends work for Wal-Mart, and they've complained. But I really like it. There's nothing hard about it at all. I'm actually thinking about sticking with this and making a career out of it. My father-in-law is a store manager, and he started off stocking. Go figure. Soooo... I'm gonna learn everything I can.

No worries, though. I'm still gonna start school and work. Just in case things don't work out, and sometimes.. they don't. I WILL have TWO degrees under my belt by the time Bry comes home from Iraq. Just in case he decides to get out, we can live off my paychecks for a while. :) He's actually considering Wal-Mart, too.

It's cute, though. Since I'm not around, when he's off work... when we do get time together, things are absolutely wonderful. It's been snowing like crazy here! And, he's been off work with me. It's been quite delightful. ^.^

It's not hard to understand, really.

Three things you just don't fuck with:
1. My family. That includes my husband and my dogs (all four of them). ESPECIALLY BRYAN.
2. My wallet/money.
3. My cell phone.

I will shank you in the face with a guitar, if I catch you. :)

If you're no longer in my life, then chances are... you've fucked with the 1,2, or 3. Your bad. Too bad I don't waste my time with second chances.

I refuse to be anything, but happy.

So it's been a while, since I've been THIS excited about Christmas.

I don't know if it's because it's the Christmas before my Bry Guy deploys, and most likely won't be here next Christmas, or if it's because there's snow to put me in a jolly mood.

But I'm REALLY excited. Bry's Mom is coming out for Christmas too, and I'm really looking forward to seeing Parra soon. He'll be home from Afghanistan on Monday. :D <3

So I was completely dumbfounded, when it came to figuring out what to get Bryan for Christmas.

Seriously, the kid's got freakin' everything. Luckily enough, HE REQUESTED THINGS. Knowing good and well, I'd do it.

The good thing about him never reading my LJ is I can post it all here (and the prices):
3 t-shirts (1 vanity, 2 fight club): $35.00 I use my spencer's gift card. :D
Ipod touch 2nd Generation: $110.00 and IT IS 32g. :D (Story about it after the list. I are proud.)
Digital Camera: Sale bundle for $90.00. With camera case and 4g memory card included. <3
Axe Body Set: $15.00 for all the BIG bottles of body spray, body wash, deodorant, AND shampoo.

... I'm probably gonna grab him some new pants later. Nautica is all he likes to wear. Picky ass. I'm gonna do stockings for Bry, his Mom, the pups, and myself. I'll probably put about $50.00 into each, $20 into the puppies. He needs batteries and junk.

Story behind Ipod: I was shopping on Ebay, because I didn't want to pay freakin' $200-$300 for a NEW Ipod Touch for him to take it to Iraq and it get messed up. I wanted to find one that was cheap, BUT DEPENDABLE. So I was looking into a 1st generation one. When I mentioned it being a Christmas present, for Bryan to take to Iraq, the seller wouldn't give me the 1st generation. He said it was too used to be a gift. He thanked my husband for his service in the military, and he sold me a 2nd generation for the price of the 1st. It made me smile SO BIG. I love when people show appreciation to the troops, whether it's just a handshake or a REALLY BIG FAVOR. It was amazing, and I'm so thankful. God bless. :)

I've almost got all my Christmas shopping done. I need to get on wrapping them. Bry found his Ipod, and I still can't keep it away from him. He's like a little boy in a candy store. I love making him happy. It makes me happy, and I -LOVE- being happy. I am loving life more than ever, recently, even with all the obstacles we're dealing with.

P.S.
i've filled out a job application for Wal-Mart. They're supposed to be calling me pretty soon with an interview. So, you guys wish me luck. If I start work, it'll be overnight. But it's all that I could find that would work around Bryan's schedule and actually get me out of the house. <3

I never quite understood the whole cheating on your significant other ordeal.

If you're not over your ex-loser, then why the fuck begin a new relationship in the first place? Are you that lonely? Are you just desperate? Scared of being alone or independent?

i had a situation here, and it's been going on for a while. I've had mixed feelings, but I'm mostly pissed off.

You say one thing, you do another. This person tells me.. "I hate tag chasers." Why? Is it because you are one?

I am so sick of playing nice, in fear that I'm going to get fucked over. Well, here it is.. black and white... the way I fuckin' feel about the whole thing.

You knew when you met Roger, love had nothing to do with it. You have a lot to learn about love and life. If you stopped worrying about men so much, you'd probably be a better mother to your son. I have never seen a child act the way he acts, ever. He needs discipline, but you don't stop what you're doing for five seconds to give him the discipline he needs. And, you ALWAYS blame someone else for it. He's that way, because you're a shitty mother. Bottom fuckin' line.

I'm not pissed off that you stuck with Adam. I'm not sure what to believe anymore, when it comes to that shit. I know if someone would've pointed a gun to my head, my child's head... I wouldn't want a fuckin' thing to do with them. Seriously, what in the hell is wrong with you?

You can't be in love with someone one second, and the other person the next. It doesn't work that way. You swear you hate tag chasing whores. I think the only reason you're giving Adam a second chance is because he's getting back into the Army. I know that if he weren't, and he knows it too... that you wouldn't give him the time of day. Girls like you, who use SOLDIERS, make me sick beyond all belief. I believe with all my heart you are a tag chaser. You're only out for what you can get.

I see men fighting for you, and I honestly do not understand why. You use them, you lie, you don't take care of yourself the way you should (the smell is overwhelming at times), you have a savage for a son, and the list goes on. I will never approve of what you did to Roger ever. I don't hate Adam, I don't have anything against the kid. It's not his fault. This whole mess is all on you.

You sat back and told me that you were going to pay me the rest of the money on the computer. Why $1,200 wasn't enough, I'll never know. Because all you did was BLOW that money, and I fuckin' needed it. I know I'm pretty much fucked out of that money, when you start talkin' about shit that Adam and you need and buying Lane new clothes.

You've used my friendship for your protection with Roger, and I can't do that anymore. That's why I told him about all the shit going on here. BECAUSE I HAVE A CONSCIOUS. If you want to throw down about it, you're more than welcome to come over here and have at it. I am MARRIED into the MILITARY, NOT because of what I can get out of the man. But because I LOVE MY HUSBAND. No, he's not always going to be perfect. He's gonna piss me off and say things he don't mean. Do you think I would ever leave him for my piece of shit ex?!

Roger knows you were lying to his face. You seem to be good at that, too damn good at that.

I can't associate myself with someone like you, because my husband is deploying in four months. I CANNOT have him doubting me, for hanging around someone like you. You're not worth my marriage, period.

I am disgusted by this entire situation. If you were half the woman you pretend to be, you'd cut up that debit card and stop blowing that man's money on ANOTHER man. It's not Roger's place to support Adam. Adam's a grown fuckin' man. My heart goes out to Roger, 100%. You know what the guy has gone through with women, and you know it's probably why he acts the way he does... yet you add insult on top of injury. You don't only cheat on the guy, but you're blowing his money like a credit card happy baboon. As far as Roger's fine goes, I'm going to make sure that's taken care of. If you won't stand behind him, by God, I will.

You don't deserve a good man, after what you did. I don't want you to call me, text me, e-mail me, etc. Stay the hell away my husband and I, or you will regret it. I have said my peace, I am done. I am not befriending another trifflin' fuckin' female ever. Go buddy up with Lei, because as far as I'm concerned, you two deserve eachother.